Hello Reader,

As I write this, adjusting to life with our newborn daughter, I'm slowly finding my rhythm again. For the first time in a month, I had one day with more than 4 uninterrupted hours for work. While this doesn't yet match the pace of incoming ideas, I wanted to share something exciting.

Despite the limited windows for work, I've poured my focused energy into completing a comprehensive guide (around 30 pages) for those ready to turn their healing journey into meaningful work. It combines deep inner work practices with practical business wisdom, and you'll be the first to receive it when I release it !

Picking up where we left off the last time I shared my story, we stopped in 2012...

When Self-Improvement Techniques Failed

After completing my bachelor's degree in 2012, the master's level engineering coursework felt much easier, especially with its focus on design. This created space for deeper exploration.

I developed an extensive morning routine: 15 minutes of meditation, 15 minutes of reading, 15 minutes of journaling, followed by a cold shower. I started working on my mindset, health, and self-image rather than focusing solely on external validation. Yet I still operated from a flawed premise:

"I'm not good enough now, but once I fix myself, everything will fall into place."

The Years of Suppression (2013-2016)

I joined a dating app (not my first attempt—but that’s another story), uploaded my best photos, crafted a compelling bio, and waited for matches. When they finally came, I felt paralyzed by anxiety at the mere thought of sending the first message. Even after two years of exposure therapy and approaching strangers on the streets, the anxiety remained intense without regular practice.

Around this time, I discovered the "masculine side" of the self-improvement community, which emphasized focusing on building wealth and physical strength. Their message resonated: I decided I wouldn’t message or approach another woman until I was physically fit and truly confident in my own skin.

I made this promise to myself and stuck to it. I cut out porn and threw myself into training, combining strength work with running 6-7 days a week. While focusing on finishing university, I picked up a side job creating visualizations for a small architectural studio to earn some money.

This period of complete suppression of natural desires carried hidden consequences for my vital energy—something I'd only understand years later through Tantra and Qi-gong teachings. But that's a story for another letter.

Three years later, with a transformed physique and some money saved, I felt ready to start dating again. I discovered Tinder, but the old pattern emerged— anxiety would surge every time I was about to send a message. This was my first real sign that the traditional advice for men, “build a body and make money”, wasn’t the complete answer. Not when you couldn’t even text a woman without anxiety gripping you.

Through trial and error, I learned what to write to secure dates. But each time, the anxiety would start in the morning and intensify as the meeting approached, often manifesting physically. After several dates that all ended the same way - awkward conversation cut short after an hour—I felt hopeless.

I craved genuine connection, yet I deeply didn't feel worthy. My attempts to act cool came across as inauthentic. While I didn't understand it then, I knew something deeper was wrong.

The Breakthrough: Discovering Emotional Freedom (2020)

In February 2020, something profound shifted when I discovered Bioenergetics and read "Letting Go." I had an epiphany—suppressed emotions were the root of my struggles. By synchronicity, I found a releasing workshop happening in my city for the first time, just a month after reading the book. After experiencing it, I felt profoundly hopeful.

The transformation was immediate. Post-workshop, I was no longer afraid to be seen or show my intentions. I saw a beautiful woman working in a small shop, felt excited, connected with that feeling, and went directly to tell her she was beautiful. We had a fun conversation. I felt no anxiety, just pure enjoyment. Even though she had a boyfriend, I felt unstoppable from that point on.

I practiced releasing emotions for months and witnessed profound changes in my life. Releasing became my gateway to deeper inner work. But my shiny object syndrome led me to explore different modalities for four more years. It wasn't until last year that I returned to what had helped me most—becoming a Sedona Method facilitator and integrating it with other tools I'd learned over the years.

The Gift in the Struggle

Looking back, every "failed" approach and technique served its purpose. They weren't just steps toward healing—they became the very experiences that now help me guide others through their own transformation.
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If you recognize yourself in any part of this journey—whether it's the endless self-improvement, the anxiety beneath the surface, or the deep desire for authentic connection—know that your struggles aren't just obstacles to overcome. They're gateways to your unique gifts.

Right now, my journey has led me to help others in two complementary ways:

1. If you’re ready to shift from an anxious, overthinking state to an embodied, peaceful self, transforming self-doubt into confidence, people-pleasing into authentic expression, and emotional blocks into natural flow—book a breakthrough call here:

2. If you’re feeling called to transform your healing journey into meaningful work and create sustainable income sharing your wisdom with others, book a clarity call here:

I have limited spots available for 1:1 work, but I want to make an impact by making sure everyone has access to these tools. If you're not ready for direct guidance (where transformation happens much faster and deeper), watch your inbox next week for my free comprehensive guide.

With depth & presence,

Bohus